Questions

who do you think you are?
talkin shit to me like youre some kind of star
do you think youre better than me?
i got news for you but youre too closed to see
why dont you listen to a word i say?
ignore me like im not even worthy of the time of day

who do you think you are?
actin all high and mighty like the hoe that you are
you smash your friends future headlong into a bar
drinkin beer, smokin dope
dont come to me when you fall of that rope.
i aint gonna pick you up and say youre alright
say 'hey, go get em, get back in there and fight'
you rejected my friendship, my solice, my life
thats the equivilent to a thrust with a knife

why dont you care?
so what if i stare?
i accept your dare
see how much weight i can bear
why do you care so much?
am i that out of touch?
what if i didnt love you so much?
then would you be happy as such?

go ahead, screw me over
you're gonna see what you did when youre older
you're gonna feel like a piece of shit
and one day go off in a raging fit
"why did i act like such a fuck?!
driving over my freinds with a truck?!"
"why didnt they tell me they were so concerend?
they did! but my back was turned!"

who the fuck do you think you are?
talkin shit to me like youre some kind of star
you're just as messed up as someone like me
but you dont know that, and thats the key
fuck that, i still love you.





I Love You Know That

today i understand life
in all its entirety
my mind in past was clouded
but now i clearly see.

yesterday i was confused
but now i know ive found my way
because i know who you are
i know who i am today.

you ask me to be true
and trust me with your life
i'll gladly do this too
because i know its right

we tell eachother things
that only we can know
and yet i keep a secret
of which i must control
i know that if you hear me
utter these words to you
things would never be the same
and i wouldnt carry through

i couldnt keep my promises
and you couldnt keep yours
but since you do not feel the same
i must stay behind closed doors
my only hope is for evil
and that i cannot use
your love for him is as important
as what i have for you

youre the one i love
i want to tell you here
but this i cannot do
cause your freindship is more dear

someday we'll both be old
and see eachother again
we'll touch eachothers hands
and know that we are freinds

we'll know that we did right
and talk straight through the night
and you'll feel like me
and i'll feel like you
the whole world will be right

but for now this is clear
and i need to stay to be quiet
for if you were to hear
my brain would be a riot

live now and let your fire burn
i'll be here watching your flames
when you decide to return

love now and feel yorself comsumed
when you are done i'll be there
in your heart is where i loom

death will come in time
and i will die with you
but we will live again
and begin life anew

this cycle never changes
thats why my life is clear
i know that i will love you
and everything you hold dear

and when you feel like dying
just know that i am here
i will love you so much
nothing else comes near

and when you feel like flying
i'll let you go and fall
and if you dont fly i'll catch you
and put you back on the wall

cos sometimes you will soar
and sometimes you will roar
and sometimes you'll attack the people that your praying for
and sometimes you will fight
and sometimes you will fall
and when you come to plight
i'll be here through it all

the clarity that i see it
brings shivers to my spine
my love for you is endless
but must stand the test of time.





Time To Go....

time, hey look around
theres none of it left
and when you try to go and grab it
you miss out on the rest

you're waiting for life to happen
but youre left in the dust
and when you look around
you find no one to trust

you savor your moments
like they're not gonna last
when its your time to shine
you'll find that its past

this illusion that we can see
is all that will be
and theres no way to tell
where life will take thee

just walk through the snow
and feel your mind go
slipping from your thoughts
to another plateau

you think on a scale
past future present
but when you let go
you find the truth is more plesant

you wont think of time
as you do day to day
but rather in a way
that you cant go astray
there'll be no more boundaries
three times are now one
memories once gone
will be now or to come
life is fucked up to begin with
theres no doubt about this
but with your thoughts off of time
you can't limit on ones bliss





(More) Questions

What are you doing
here in my life?
are you here to help me?
hurt me? change me? give strife?
what are your goals?
your intentions? your platform on life?
are you here for a reason?
or do you think its all random?
a chaotic sequence of events unrelated in any way?
who knows? does it really matter?
will it change the way you live
from day to day?
where are we going?
when are we there?
if you dont know why it exists
then how can love be rare?
is it? how do you know?
is there a psychological apothecary
where you can go?
how do it find it?
what is life anyway?
how do you know you're living it?
are you the same as I?
is green the same to you and me
or apple pie taste like apple pie?
did you and i meet by chance?
or is there a destiny?
a way to know that you've got a
place in history?
why do i ask you?
are you better than I?
could you know more than anyone really?
by conventional methods im retarded
but does that mean i cant fly?
soar in the thoughts of my mind
just not in the same way as the 'normal' guy.
does that make me a mistake?
how are you possibly able to judge?
is anything better than anything else?
just some shit to think 'bout
stop reading, live life, go out!
when you know these answers can you tell me?
or is it something
i need to find out on my own?





The Game of Confusion

whats going on? im so confused
how am i supposed to know what to do?
i have to decide whats right or wrong
who to believe, as life goes along
where am i going? why do i hide?
is it because im too scared to swallow my pride?
whats pride anyway? is it really important?
does it matter to you? do you think any of its worth it?
i ask these questions but the answers are moot
it doesnt matter which way i go,
or for which team i root.

it only matters how i play the game
whats that mean if the game is insaine?
if i come to watch it, is there much i can gain?
this game is called life
its competitors are happiness,
boredom, and strife
confusion is eminent, thoughts are skewd
as long as youre happy whats more to do?
why involve myself in misery and greif?
constantly questioning my own beliefs?
why is it we all need to know more?
whats the final ending god has in store?

what if i jumped off the cliff tonight?
would i be caught and things be set right?
how do i know if i win or lose?
is it one of those things meant to occupy and amuse?
to destract us from the real goal at hand
that which keeps us going, to fight, take a stand.
what am i fighting for? is there a need to use violence?
im still comfused, but thats better than silence.